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Unraveling The Acts
Finding Authenticity in a World of Pretense
I’m standing naked in front of an audience that doesn’t see me for who I am. This isn’t where I imagined myself to be at thirty-eight years old.
PERHAPS THE SINGLE MOST CHALLENGING AND INTERESTING FACT ABOUT ending your thirties is this — you may wake up one day with no clear sense of who you are or why you are here.
For almost two decades, I played different roles, wore masks, and lived through other people’s stories, allowing generations of pain to control my identity like a puppet on a string. I learned to dance, sing, and write in a world that wasn’t meant for me.
If you are reading my work, you might relate to feeling lost in your own Broadway show.
We often fail to question why we are so attached to people, places, and things as if we were puppets on strings. We cling to certain expectations for how our lives should turn out, but in reality, we all live in uncertainty and cannot control or predict what comes our way.
Why do we become so attached to outcomes?
We make commitments like “till death do us part,” put our faith in God and entrust our lives to the government. However, when things go wrong, we search for something else to hold onto for safety.
