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How Darkness Showed Me To Be A Man Again
A hero ventures forth from the world of common day into a region of supernatural wonder: fabulous forces are there encountered and a decisive victory is won: the hero comes back from this mysterious adventure with the power to bestow boons on his fellow man.” ~ Joseph Campbell
There was a moment in my life where I didn’t know who the man in the mirror was.
A time where I found myself in a place of shame, guilt, distrust, anger, and anxiety.
It was a period of darkness where I forced myself into deep depression.
It can be easy to lose ourselves at the expense of life.
When I hit rock bottom and admitted I needed help, I felt broken.
I used addictive behaviors to give me the fuel to feel worthy enough to survive.
All I wanted was a deep connection to myself and the world, but I offloaded all of my pain to everyone close to me.
I began to turn on myself and anyone whoever asked.
I hated myself and grew weaker by the day; ending my life didn’t seem like the only option, but the best option.
