Who am I? A conversation with my body.
So here I am, at this moment watching the world flow through the words before me. I am leaning into this idea that the more I surrender to life, the more my dreams and desires manifest. What they turn into is not up to me, because that would mean I was attached to a certain outcome and way of life.
Caroline Myss, New York Times bestselling author and internationally renowned speaker in the fields of human consciousness and spirituality, said it best when it comes to moving through difficult times in life “Just let go. Let go of how you thought your life should be, and embrace the life that is trying to work its way into your consciousness.”
To me, this means there is nowhere to go.
Like I do almost every morning, I meditated on this idea that there is nothing else to do, except be here, right now in this sacred precious moment I have been granted another breath.
This question of who am I can drift my attention to everything I do in this very moment. Sometimes things flow, other times there are no answers of clarity. But I know who I am will evolve as I grow. There is no perfect time to begin a dialogue with the Universe. These words are my relationship to my soul, my heart, and to the world.
What is it that I truly crave?
Deeper connections? Deeper relationships? Intimate relationships?
So with my breath, I drifted off to a world that is becoming more familiar to me. Do I dare go where things scare the shit out of me? Do I give myself permission to keep writing and step into everything that is not certain?
Every breath. Every word. Every tear. Every fear.
They all help me lean into life a little bit harder.
A little bit more than yesterday as I invite the vibrations of the universe up through my body. What the fuck does this even mean?
I question myself and get lost in thoughts of yesterday and tomorrow.
But I find my breath again and place my hand on my heart. It is where I give myself permission to let down the walls blocking love into my heart.
And I find another breath and ask myself how I show up to the world.
Am I ready to shine my light into the world?
Am I ready to walk and speak my truth?
Do I trust myself to be true to everything I write about?
I can make better choices in this place when I trust myself to connect deeper with my body. I can ask myself what my heart longs for. I can feel my deepest desires manifest within. This is the power of acceptance. This is the power of slowing down.
This is who I am right now. And I never want to go back.