Friday Flow 2/5/21

Covid Fatigue And Battling My Inner Critic

Feeding My Demons By Writing

I’m not sure if it’s COVID and the combination of winter or the chase of my vision, but the emotional roller coaster in my life has taken me for a ride. I feel as If I have nothing left some days.

In my journal, I wrote…

I know that our bodies hold the keys to
the freedoms we seek. In this moment
of doubt, you have to believe.

The path is dark as I make my
way through the twisted plot of
my past. A lonely soul searching
for something, how long will it last?

I consider myself a relatively happy human and am proud of the things I am doing, but I’ve hit a wall. It’s as if my body was running on bursts of adrenaline over the last two years as a natural response to the events in my life, and now it’s telling me to slow down.

While slowing down is generally a good idea in life, I find myself challenging this side because I know I have more inside than I allow myself to be. This side calling me to slow down is an aspect I do not like about myself, and I have come to be aware of this demon. I know the pull I feel to slow down is that three-headed demon trying to sabotage my progress because of my previous life.

My entire life was about moving fast. So there are old rules pounded into my psyche that tell me to use my MBA…