Friday Feelings

Emptiness is the starting point — Bruce Lee

Like an unexpected jab to the face that knocked me out in the last round, part of me feels knocked out and empty.

Life’s constant reminder that the world will not permit you to align with your true self until you give yourself permission is a lesson I need to learn. If I am to live a life full of love, intimacy, passion, and vulnerability, then I must first discover how to empty all preconceived notions of what is meant to live as a man.

Rather than face the truth head-on, I replaced intimacy with intensity to disguise what I was feeling. That did not turn well for me.

Faced with the truth after a tough divorce, I feel parts of me are lost as wander into the unknown.

I also wonder if in this place of emptiness, will I find my true self?

Maturity as a man.

Authenticity.

Vulnerability.

Intimacy.

Ownership.

Forgiveness.

I begin to sit with myself and wonder how often I have betrayed myself as a man?

My divorce has made me realize that I am terrified of the external world around me. What will happen if I finally decide to take a stand for what I…