Friday Feelings 9/27/19

The truth - life is like one big waterslide out the vagina into death, so you might as well create your own fucking reality.

Life is unpleasant. For the past few months, I would tell myself that I was lost, uncertain and confused. But the reality is I am none of those. Instead, I am just in the midst of a startup, writing a new story of life, and re-creating myself.

I am learning that words are things, this is the power of duality. Everything I choose to say has a direct correlation of what I attract into my life. In the midst of my quest for perfection, I have found chaos. Like running water down a rapid river, sometimes calm, sometimes rough, and sometimes hectic, life is unpleasant.

Fuck the quest for a perfect life. It does not exist.

It’s been nearly three months since my divorce. I feel ready for a rebirth. I have things I am excited about. At the same time, part of me wants to run away and hide. Because that is what everyone is telling me to do. But I need to sit with my pain. I need to take each moment as a blessing. I get to experience all that life has to offer.

That is the beauty of life.