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Friday Feelings 3/6/20

George Kalantzis
2 min readMar 6, 2020

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I was talking to a friend last night who always gets me to think outside the box. I had told him about the massive shift in life that occurred and that I am finally at peace.

He told me that in a weird way, I have earned peace and that the stars aligned. Magic is in the air, go use some of it.

The last few years of my life have been filled with chaos. Now, if I am to write for myself, which I am doing, I have to admit that much of the chaos in my life I have allowed. It’s like wherever I went in life, I thrived off chaos.

I was ashamed to face the man in the mirror every day I woke up. Fuck that hurt.

Maybe my call to action had to come from a place of darkness and emptiness?

Every man must face his katabasis at some point. My mentor Traver Boehm taught me that. It’s a passage that often leads to heartbreak, death, confusion, depression, and emptiness. On the other side of that passage is freedom. I can feel it in the depths of my soul.

A big fear I have now that I am at peace is what will happen next?

I’ve never had peace in life. I don’t know what it’s like to feel my highest power of masculinity through the depths of my heart and soul.

It’s kind of orgasmic. Maybe it’s because sex intensifies the life force in our bodies. What I find interesting is that I have chosen for the first time in life to be celibate and not have sex.

So I guess that is why I feel orgasmic.

In this space, I have found a life filled with passion, purpose, and love.

The pleasures of heaven are with me, and the pains of hell scar me, but it is here where I feel like a warrior again.

-George

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George Kalantzis
George Kalantzis

Written by George Kalantzis

George is a professional storyteller, a dad to a sassy and adventurous eight year-old girl, and the author Of Nowhere To Go

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