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Friday Feelings 12/27/2019
My Biggest Revelations From 2019
2019 has been a fucking ride. It’s 4 am on a Friday, and I woke up excited to write this journal entry and now that the year is ending.
I decided to take a day to get away and reflect. During my hike yesterday, I shut off the world.
I felt the cold wind, I heard the birds and the quiet snow falling from the trees in the distance. It was simple and refreshing.
The views were breathtaking.
As I sat up to the top, I found myself a bit distracted because my phone got service and the texts came in. I acknowledged some of them but instantly shut off my phone to dive back into reflection. I think that’s what finding a balance of life is about.
As I shut the world out, tears came down my face. They were a combination of sadness, anger, and acceptance for my new life.
While 2019, has been one of the most challenging years of my life, I have managed to find amazing opportunities in the midst of chaos. None of what I have done has been easy.
First I will address the chaos :
Divorce- I have never faced something so painful as an unexpected divorce. You can read more about that here, but knowing that the woman I wanted everything to do with wanted nothing…