Friday Feelings 1/17/20

Bless the thing that broke you down and cracked you open because the world needs you open- Rebecca Campbell

Today is my anniversary, and it would have been my fifth year as a married man. Realizing the world I had thought I was going to live is not true, is a hard thing to surrender. It’s something I have been battling with. Maybe this is what it means when they say heartbreak offers a source to a higher power.

I’ve been taught my entire life that I can be a better man by my relationships, fueling the emptiness inside through the validation and means of people and external substances.

I think this is the beauty of love. When I can realize and see the power that comes from feeling my emotions for the first time. Having been through a tough year of divorce, I’m now willing to surrender to what is.

I’ve accepted my new life that is unfolding, and I can now step into the man I want to become. No judgments, no expectations. There is no room for pretending anymore.

This is powerful because, in this space of uncertainty, I can finally meet myself. I have found out more about myself through the power of my words. Through the power of vulnerability. Through the power of crying. Through the power of truth.