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Friday Feelings 1/10/20
To accuse others for one’s own misfortunes is a sign of want of education. To accuse oneself shows that one’s education has begun. To accuse neither oneself nor others shows that one’s education is complete. Epictetus
I can’t believe it is 2020.
The last decade was insane for me, and when I thought I had life all figured out, I didn’t know that much about life at all.
I’ve been fighting that lately. How do I accept the new life that is unfolding?
From combat, death, depression, marriage, fatherhood, and divorce, I have learned a lot about tough transitions — each one of them, no more unique than the other.
I’m stuck in this place of awkwardness and uncertainty, and I have to learn how to sit with it. And all of that sucks.
I’ve been working on myself: no drinking, no sex, no dating, no bullshit.
I spend a lot of time alone, and all of that is okay. I have a co-dependent personality. My coach and therapist helped me discover that.
Being alone isn’t that I don’t like people; in fact, I authentically engage with people daily. It’s just these days I am learning how to sit with my thoughts and am in the middle of some serious changes. And I am okay with that.
