A Letter To My Ex-Wife On Our Anniversary Date
Ten years ago, I walked over…. wait, a girl walked over to me, and we soon traveled the world together. Today would have been our sixth wedding anniversary. A day where we probably would have had a fancy dinner and some ice-cream while we watched Harry Potter and laughed at the simple things in life. And while I’m still going to have some ice-cream and watch Harry Potter, I would have never imagined in my life that we would be here today.
We laughed, we cried, we fought, but more importantly, we loved hard. In the process, things broke, we broke, and our hearts shattered to a million pieces in a world filled with confusion and sorrow.
I wore so much armor around my heart, it caused a chasm between our souls. I know you longed for real intimacy, but there were parts of myself that I did not love. As a result, I could never see that you loved me for who I was because I was conditioned to believe I had to wear more armor to protect my heart. I now recognize that love will always thrive on freedom.
All I ever wanted was a family of my own. Somehow, I got lost in the accumulation of materialism and thought these things would make me more of a man. Yet those were the exact things that drove us farther apart. There are no words that can undo who I was in the battle between our hearts. I know I hid behind many masks. But…