A Conversation With The Imposter

Friday Flow 7/2/21

You are not an imposter…

These are the words I wrote in my journal after waking up later than usual and feeling heavy. So many things are shifting in my life. I am coming up on two years sober. My debut book is releasing in September, and I have been feeling a tug alongside my life for a few weeks.

I’ve become friendly with the imposter within. The more I listen to my heart, the more he sits by my side to tell me I am not all the things I want to be. While confusing and painful most days he visits, I know there is deeper wisdom beneath his harsh words.

This morning, like I do every Friday, I found myself looking at the shadow beside me. It was a strange conversation because what I heard was not what I expected.

Many of my experiences in life caused me to run from my authentic self. I write extensively about this in my book.

I created an identity that I could hide behind. I was afraid of who I was and everything around me, so becoming a Marine felt like the only option to disguise what I felt inside. With the heavy armor bound by the identity of a Marine, I stayed small and only saw life from a one-sided lens. Life was filled with existence, yet I felt empty inside. And if you have been following my journey, you know how that…